Breakfast
Oatmeal with sweetener, cinnamon and banana (300)
Coffee with skim milk (45)
Lunch
Tuna salad (444)
Specialty's Deli cookie (400)
Fannie Mae samples (100)
Dinner
Sushi-vegetable rolls (240)
International coffee (105)
Total = 1,634
Exercise = 60 minutes cardio (elliptical)
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Food diary
Last night's small victory was offset by today's defeat. From the start today, trapped at home under a blizzard, I gave in by lunch time and binged all day. I will try--once again--to remember this feeling of regret and of nausea, as a means to fight the feeling to binge next time it comes. Tomorrow is another day, and another chance to work on better behavior.
A small victory
Had to work late last night, as the biggest blizzard in 40 years bared down on Chicago. Downtown was a ghost town after 6:00 before I began the miserable walk to the train, and the far worse walk from the train home, with winds so bad they just glided me along the icy roads (only clear space to walk).
The stress of the commute, and work piling up in preparation for vacation was just calling me to eat. I wanted so badly to grab for food the way I assume an alcoholic feels compelled to grab for the bottle.
I know myself, and I know this feeling. A snack of any kind, would just have opened the flood gates to eat everything in the house ... until I felt ill and full of regret. It has nothing to do with being hungry.
Doing something to distract myself indoors isn't an option because I can't concentrate on reading, writing or anything. The weather prevented me from going to the gym (and it closed early, anyway). Yet somehow I did it. I didn't break!
If last night was a challenge, today will be monumental. I'm literally trapped at home buried in two feet of snow. Already, the urges are gnawing at me. But last night was a small victory nonetheless.
The stress of the commute, and work piling up in preparation for vacation was just calling me to eat. I wanted so badly to grab for food the way I assume an alcoholic feels compelled to grab for the bottle.
I know myself, and I know this feeling. A snack of any kind, would just have opened the flood gates to eat everything in the house ... until I felt ill and full of regret. It has nothing to do with being hungry.
Doing something to distract myself indoors isn't an option because I can't concentrate on reading, writing or anything. The weather prevented me from going to the gym (and it closed early, anyway). Yet somehow I did it. I didn't break!
If last night was a challenge, today will be monumental. I'm literally trapped at home buried in two feet of snow. Already, the urges are gnawing at me. But last night was a small victory nonetheless.
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Food diary
Breakfast
Oatmeal and cottage cheese pancake with banana and 2 tsp. each peanut butter and Nutella (384)
Coffee with skim milk (45)
Lunch
Tuna salad (444)
Dinner
Greek peach non-fat yogurt with 1/4 cup walnuts (240)
Slice whole wheat toast with Laughing Cow wedge (165)
Total = 1,278
Oatmeal and cottage cheese pancake with banana and 2 tsp. each peanut butter and Nutella (384)
Coffee with skim milk (45)
Lunch
Tuna salad (444)
Dinner
Greek peach non-fat yogurt with 1/4 cup walnuts (240)
Slice whole wheat toast with Laughing Cow wedge (165)
Total = 1,278
Monday, January 31, 2011
Food diary
Breakfast
1/2 cup oatmeal with cinnamon, sweetener and banana (300)
Coffee with skim milk (35)
Lunch
Greek peach non-fat yogurt with 1/4 cup walnuts (240)
Snack
Apple (75)
Dinner
Pizza! (1,600)
Total = 2,250
Exercise = 60 minutes cardio (elliptical)
1/2 cup oatmeal with cinnamon, sweetener and banana (300)
Coffee with skim milk (35)
Lunch
Greek peach non-fat yogurt with 1/4 cup walnuts (240)
Snack
Apple (75)
Dinner
Pizza! (1,600)
Total = 2,250
Exercise = 60 minutes cardio (elliptical)
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Food diary
Breakfast
Oatmeal and cottage cheese pancake with banana and 2 tsp. each peanut butter and Nutella (384)
Snack
1/2 cup plain yogurt with clementine slices and 1/4 cup walnuts (195)
Lunch
1/2 vegetable panini, sweet potato fries and roasted brussels sprouts (376)
Dinner
Two-egg omelet with cheddar cheese, tomato, red pepper and red onion and slice whole wheat toast with Laughing cow wedge (433)
Candy cane (45)
Total = 1,433
Exercise = yoga class
Oatmeal and cottage cheese pancake with banana and 2 tsp. each peanut butter and Nutella (384)
Snack
1/2 cup plain yogurt with clementine slices and 1/4 cup walnuts (195)
Lunch
1/2 vegetable panini, sweet potato fries and roasted brussels sprouts (376)
Dinner
Two-egg omelet with cheddar cheese, tomato, red pepper and red onion and slice whole wheat toast with Laughing cow wedge (433)
Candy cane (45)
Total = 1,433
Exercise = yoga class
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Giving up certain foods forever
After a binge weekend that slid right into the early part of this week, I'm feeling better and stronger as tomorrow starts yet a new week. This new blog/journal feels like a good tool in my arsenal to keep on fighting.
A radio talk show this week featured an author whose soap box is a belief that exercise and calorie counting do nothing to help us loose weight. Rather, it's as easy as eliminating carbs (mostly the simple kind). He believes the insulin affect on fat is so bad, that those prone to weight gain should simply ban them completely as does someone who gives up cigarettes. "Once and a while" or "just one" doesn't work, he believes.
I disagree with his views on exercise and calorie counting, particularly the former. As a person in her 300s who was known for saying, "I only run if someone is chasing me.", I am today so grateful and amazed for the strength and endurance I've gained from developing a balanced fitness program. I know it will benefit me greatly as I age.
Yet I do believe that for someone like me--with a history of obesity who still treats food as substance abuse--I think it's worth banning simple carbs for a long enough period to see how much I benefit. I'm someone who can eat completely unconsciously. Don't believe me? I've been known to walk into my office kitchen and find a box of public Girl Scout cookies or someone's leftover dessert from last night's dinner party, and will find myself swallowing before I even realize I grabbed a piece.
... as I write, I think I've talked myself into trying. No chips, pretzels, candy or baked goods. Three months, March through May. (I'm out of the country for two weeks in February, so don't trust myself to try this until I return.)
Stay tuned,
Robin
A radio talk show this week featured an author whose soap box is a belief that exercise and calorie counting do nothing to help us loose weight. Rather, it's as easy as eliminating carbs (mostly the simple kind). He believes the insulin affect on fat is so bad, that those prone to weight gain should simply ban them completely as does someone who gives up cigarettes. "Once and a while" or "just one" doesn't work, he believes.
I disagree with his views on exercise and calorie counting, particularly the former. As a person in her 300s who was known for saying, "I only run if someone is chasing me.", I am today so grateful and amazed for the strength and endurance I've gained from developing a balanced fitness program. I know it will benefit me greatly as I age.
Yet I do believe that for someone like me--with a history of obesity who still treats food as substance abuse--I think it's worth banning simple carbs for a long enough period to see how much I benefit. I'm someone who can eat completely unconsciously. Don't believe me? I've been known to walk into my office kitchen and find a box of public Girl Scout cookies or someone's leftover dessert from last night's dinner party, and will find myself swallowing before I even realize I grabbed a piece.
... as I write, I think I've talked myself into trying. No chips, pretzels, candy or baked goods. Three months, March through May. (I'm out of the country for two weeks in February, so don't trust myself to try this until I return.)
Stay tuned,
Robin
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